As much as I like to fight it, I am clumped in with the millions of Americans with crazy mood swings right now. For most of my  five weeks here in North Carolina I have felt separated from the chaos, as the town that I am in has been spared of any Corona cases. Being out of a tiny NYC apartment and into a house with a lake view made me feel safe and in control again. That is until real life problems started to soak into the walls I had built up around me. Rent was due, grocery bills kept coming longer than I expected to be here, unemployment felt like a knife being twisted in my gut with no blood bank in sight to fill me with what I had lost. 

The breakdown day came in like wrecking ball (because that is the song that is now stuck in my head) and anything I would usually find a positive spin on turned to devastation in the blink of an eye. Logically I knew that I was doing everything I could, but anxiety said otherwise. I let the day of frustration rush over me as I quickly realized nothing could be done in the moment to fix the problems I was facing.

The next day the world became significantly brighter and one of my all time favorite hashtags came across my screen. #BatShitGrateful was started by Maxie McCoy, author of You’re Not Lost, a book I highly recommend. There are so many uncertainties in life right now, but one thing I am very certain of is that I am #BatShitGrateful for the what I do have. Sometimes I have to make myself stop and remember everything that I am grateful for. Other days it overwhelms me just to think about how many blessings I have around me. No matter how stressful any day might be, there is always a list of things to be thankful for.

I am forever grateful for my support system, my health, and sunsets. What are you grateful for today?

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3 thoughts on “#BatShitGrateful 

  1. We are so proud of you Lauren. It seems as if it were just yesterday, you and Jordyn were little girls in your St. Patrick’s uniforms. Watching you live out your dream, as well as all of your success is beautiful. Sending you lots of love.
    💜 Michele

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